I know it has been awhile. But today I want to talk about purpose. One of the things I enjoyed most about having Madison was the feeling of purpose in my life. Yeah the getting up early to feed her was hard. But I never once complained.
Every sat morning was my morning to let Kellie sleep in and I would get up, feed Maddie, and play with her until Momma woke up. She would always wake up about 30 minutes after me because she hated to miss anything even if me and Maddie were just watching TV, or playing on the computer, Kellie was right there by our sides.
I find it very hard to find a purpose in my life now that Maddie is gone. I know that I want to be the best Husband and Best father to my future children I can be. But sometimes I just feel like my whole reason for getting up is gone when I wake and realize it is another day without my baby girl.
I used to count the minutes until I got off work so I could get home and see my Maddiebug and spend time with her and Kellie. Most of the time Kellie would meet me in the driveway with Maddie and give me a big hug even though I was sweaty and stinky from work. I loved those moments and will cherish them forever.
Anyway I am at work and some of the guys that work under me walk around here like they have no purpose. Just remember, even if you are tired of your job, try not to show it. When you are walking somewhere, walk with a purpose. Show the people around you the Devil is not winning. Even if he is pulling at your insides, show the people and especially the ones you love that the devil will not win.
When it is time for raises and promotions and all that...they are going to give it to the people that have a purpose. Not someone who walks around waiting for the time to go home. Hope this helps someone out there needing a little pick me up and hope everyone has a good day!