Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Madison Paige Staats
So I made a blog a very very long time ago to try and drum up some business in the Automotive field, particularly BMW. I was working at Adams Automotive and not getting much work so I thought I would make a blog and try to get some people that way. I never followed through with it and so much has changed since then.
Me and my wonderful wife Kellie had the most amazing thing happen to us. We got pregnant. I still remember the day she told me like it was yesterday. We were full of excitement and joy! Then a few months later we found out it was a girl and my heart melted! I was a tuff guy who works out all the time and works on cars all day and now was going to have this wonderful baby girl to come home to!!
She was born on October 14th 2010 and was the most precious thing I have ever laid my eyes on. She had a red tint to her hair. We always joked we would get a red head because my father has red hair. I fell so deeply in love as soon as I met her! We named her Madison Paige!! Everything was set up so perfect for us to have the perfect family!!
On February 17th 2011 I got the worst phone call of my life. My wonderful baby girl wasn't breathing. Immediately I began to pray and beg God to take care of my baby girl. I couldn't breathe. My knees were weak.. As I type this my heart is pounding reliving this horrible moment in my life. I got to the hospital and my wife told me the news. She is gone is all she could manage to say....... My life changed forever.
It has been 9 weeks as of tomorrow since she got her angel wings and we could not miss her more. We hate being in this club. They tell us she died from SIDS which stands for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. I didn't really know what that was until this happened to us. I don't know why God took her away from us but the only way I can deal with it is telling myself he is saving her from something much worse in the future.
I am glad I got to spend 4 amazing months with one of Gods angels and the only thing I could ever want is to have her back. I wear a dog tag with her on it and am thinking of getting a tattoo of her on my chest on my Heart. She will always be with me and I am glad I kissed her every day before I went to work and told her I loved her!
The title for my blog is "The best is yet to come" and I still believe that, but it is really hard to think of what could top holding that precious angel in my arms again. I want to thank all of the people who have helped me and Kellie through this. Meg, Michelle and Derek, Catherine, My Mom and Dad, Kellie's Mom and Dad, Travis, Brad, Lisa and Chris, there are so many!! There have been numerous people reach out to us through Kellie's blog with encouraging comments!
To all of you thank you so much. The whole can never be filled in our hearts but having friends like you helps it heal a little. I had to get this all out so thank you for reading it. Love you and think about you everyday Maddiebug!!!!